Checking in pretty late today because I just came home at around 1030 after gymming. Did a little training session with Bean and felt like he doesn't respect my authority at all. I really need him to be calm around me, but right now it's still that hyperactive side of him that I see whenever I'm around. How? How do I get him to respect my authority and trust me so that he will be calm? It's so frustrating all the time and yet I have to be calm and authoritative when I'm interacting with him. No raising of voices, every single command must be firm, yet I got to do it in a loving manner because he feels it too.
Usually when I put him back in his crate, he cries for a while before he stops. It's not barking, but more like whimpering. So today I tried to stay around even after I put him in his crate for him to sleep. There he went, proving me wrong again. He started with whimpering, then it became louder and louder till it became unbearably loud. So I opened up the crate, said "NO" in the most firm and calm manner that I could. He softened a little. Seconds after I walked away, he reverted back into crying loudly. This absolutely forced my hand, I opened up the crate, said "NO" again and hit him. I can't care about whether this will make him aggressive or not anymore, I had to discipline him there and then. This action of hitting him, I did twice and after the 2nd time, he stopped almost immediately. I don't know if I did the wrong thing. Perhaps I won't know it for the next few months, but I knew that if he did something wrong, I had to make it known to him so that I can guide him. We shall see.
He's currently in his crate, not making a single noise since just now. I think that's a good thing? Sigh, I really just wish he'd listen to me more. On another note, work was pretty busy today. Usually I'd have time to talk to my colleagues, like just random chit chat but today was wewwww ain't catching a break. Overall, I'd still say today was a pretty good day though.
