Friday, September 7, 2018
'4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.'
-1 Corinthians 13:4-13
'Love never ends'.
Perhaps you've never loved me.
Brian
9:41 PM
Sunday, September 2, 2018
'It will get better.'
Heard this many times today. But my question is, 'how long?'
I feel betrayed. I feel like everything we shared in these 2 years has to mean nothing now.
How does a person lose feelings for someone after what they've went through?
I was there for her when she needed me, i spent just enough time with her(what she thought was enough), i prayed for her, i cared about her, i loved her.
So now, what is enough? Did i not do enough? What went wrong?
I gave my all. I tried hard to sustain this in the best way possible for both of us. I was invested in this. And then she says that the feelings are gone.
I was looking at the backup photos in my computer. Saw some of the moments we shared. Those are still memories that i treasure. It's hard to think that the same person in those pictures doesn't love me anymore. I miss those times.
So how does someone forget that? How does someone go through all those moments together and decide one day that, i have no feelings for you no more and move on?
I don't understand.
Why do i not get my happy story?
Why does God have to rob me of one of the things that gave me meaning in life?
Why did God rob me of someone i love?
Brian
10:22 PM
