Another week has passed just like that. Went for a theory lesson for dog training today and as a result, I missed church. That made today a super relaxed day, practically stayed home the entire day and slept a lot. Feeling kinda awake now, but I know I've gotta sleep soon.
Nothing's been happening much lately. I've also been going through the motions and keeping myself occupied. Though I gotta say there's a small dilemma that I'm thinking about recently. Do I really want a partner or not? I gotta admit that it feels vastly different now. I used to feel butterflies in my stomach when I'm talking to the girl I liked, I used to see the good things that being in a relationship will give. It all feels different now, I see it more as something bad. There are so many factors of uncertainty, how can I be sure that it'll work out, how can I be sure that it won't be so bad that I'll take another 3years just to feel like myself again? How do I convince myself that, marriage can be a good thing? It doesn't seem that way anymore, it just feels like it is something that's meant to be good but will never be. So why will I want that?
