Friday, September 6, 2019
I still think about how much has changed in the past year.
The heartbreaks, the things I've lost and the things I've gained.
It's not easy to let go. It doesn't just disappear with a snap, I wish it was that simple.
But, facts are facts.
1 year on, y'all stuck with her.
You say you care, but I don't see you.
Things may have changed, but you got used to it anyway. I did too.
One person will never make a significant difference.
I knew that right from the start so it was easy to accept it.
What hurts is that I know she still has it all. It's unfair.
And I'm still learning to deal with that.
The people I hold dear to me now are those who stuck with me.
People who have helped me grow in the past year.
If you know me, you'd know I'm not a tough nut to crack.
You'd know that I can open up easily as long as you're willing to listen.
If you didn't, then it's understandable why we don't keep in contact anymore.
Or perhaps, you cared too much to see what I really needed.
So don't blame me.
Instead, take it as a lesson to be learnt.
Promises crumble when there are no actions to back it up.
Prayers mean nothing if you don't do something about the problem.
If you meant what you said, the response will be different.
Sometimes, all we need is a little courage.
Yes, it takes courage to care because you can only get hurt when you start to care.
If you feel hurt reading this, use that strength and focus it on people around you that you really care about.
With all that being said, I hope you know that I don't hate you guys.
It was fun while it lasted. I look back on those days fondly.
When I was laughing with you guys, I meant it.
But I hate her.
And here's the thing.
Even if she read this, she wouldn't be hurt cos she doesn't care.
The only thing that will be hurt is her pride.
So don't blame me for leaving.
None of you know what I went through in the past year.
Brian
10:52 PM
