Sunday, October 21, 2018
'Be the change you want to see'
What's the point of change if it's unnatural? Will forcing the change to come help the situation?
I'm not a fan of change, I avoid it. I don't like being in the scenario where things needs to change because it's almost always bring out a certain level of chaos. People will end up unhappy, and sometimes it leaves a huge scar.
I hate change but at the same time, there are times when i embrace it. This happens when it's a peaceful change. Getting into a relationship was a good change. I can't be alone, I used to think that way before getting into my first relationship. After breaking up, it still holds true. I don't want to be alone. It sucks to not have that constant 2nd opinion which you can trust, a person who wants the best for you at a very intimate level. I want a person who chose to love me, not because of blood relation or common interests or similar personality. And that person, I'll be able to love and trust without holding back too. In this particular instance, there was a change I fought for, and a change which came to me as a surprise.
Serving God in a particular church requires change too. A change in heart to have the burden for a particular ministry. A change in lifestyle because more time has to be set aside for that ministry. Some changes come as I serve. Changes in perspective of the church, changes to the ministry's needs, changes to my own needs.
The most important thing about change is the end result that it's steering towards. Things need to change because some parts of it may be wrong. Because I'm getting so used to it and I'm taking things for granted and so problems start arising. If there's an end in mind, fighting for change is a huge motivation. When changes come without knowing the reason behind it, I struggle. I find it hard to accept the change that was handed to me. I hate this kind of change because there's nothing I can do about it. Especially things that were once considered to be truths, changed, to become lies.
I have to wait to know what's the end result. And that sucks.
Brian
8:23 PM
