Friday, February 2, 2018
1/2
I'm reminded of certain things and it's making me sad. If you aren't into emo stuff, skip paragraph 4, or this entire post if you want.
So usual day, had lessons in the morning, went for career fair and exercised at night. Career fair was pretty fun, got to know more about some companies and saw a few that i was actually interested in. Today's only the first day of the career fair and there's still two more days. Hopefully i'll be able to find more companies that i'm interested in.
Just came back from exercising actually. Started at 8, ended at 10. Pretty extensive workout routine today, which involved the whole body once more. Not feeling it on the upper body but core and legs, oh my.. A few of us wanted to shorten the legs routine today, but we ended up trying the full thing for one set, and continued the full thing for the second set too! Sometimes, we gotta push ourselves to see our limit and judge from there. It was super fun.
So why am i sad? I've been thinking a lot about autumn recently. It's been almost 7months since she's gone. Every single time i see a video of a dog, i get reminded of autumn. When i get to play with someone's dog, i get reminded of her too. I really miss her welcoming me back home, i miss her just lying next to me when i'm doing work and when i call her name, she'll just look at me with those cute puppy eyes. I miss all of that. I didn't know how much i missed her until i literally woke up crying today because i dreamt of her. I don't mind having another dog, but i don't know if i can deal with the pain of losing another companion like that. I really miss her.
Brian
12:03 AM
Thursday, February 1, 2018
31/1
I failed.
Today marks the last day of the month and i've set a goal for today - to do my first muscle up. It was a goal i've set for myself at the start of the month when i hit my record high pullups. Felt pretty confident when i had aimed to do my first muscle up. Unsurprisingly, i failed.
Well, first let me explain why it was unsurprising to me. At the start of the month, i was really motivated. I exercised almost everyday for 2 weeks, alternating between an upper body routine and a legs routine. Felt pretty good everyday until i started feeling the effects of overtraining. I couldn't feel the tension in my muscles anymore, i could still do basic pullups but the strength felt like it wasn't there anymore. Even when i got on the bar to pull, it just felt like i wasn't training at all. On top of that, I believe my body recovers the best when i start to sleep at around 10pm-12am, yet i'm always sleeping past 12am.
One thing that i really take pride in, which is my determination for dieting, is starting to get lenient too. I've been eating junk food quite often now and the urge to eat has gone up tremendously. It has gotten pretty hard for me to control my food intake.
Overall, i definitely know why i didn't feel like i was improving. There's still lots to be done.
Have i given up? Nope.
Will i stop trying? Nope.
Do i still want it? Yes.
It's time for a new goal. By the end of February, I will do my first muscle up. It'll be the first mark of my #10000hours.
Brian
12:04 AM
