Monday, January 23, 2017
8th Day.
8.30am
1 cup of coffee, without adding anthing. Horrible.
Blues.
Monday blues were real. Rained for the entire day and it just felt like a good day to sleep in bed.
Morning was bad, always felt like sleeping and just not feeling at my top condition today.
Work ended late too, left at 6.45pm. Didn't want to request to leave because my colleagues were all in the middle of something. All's good cos today was a stay in night and i just finished playing overwatch with the tards.
Well, at least there's something to look forward to tomorrow. Meeting her for movie and just the thought of that makes it all better. Perhaps the activities i have at night are what keeps me going. At least i know at the end of the day there's always something to look forward to. Whether it's staying at home to game or meeting her or exercising, it all motivates me to push through throughout the day, kinda.
Hopefully it stops raining by tomorrow morning. Not easy to get around when it's raining.
But please continue to rain when i'm sleeping.
End.
Brian
11:03 PM
Sunday, January 22, 2017
7th Day.
1 cup of coffee.
Headache all day.
End of the first week and i'm feeling the effects of being out at least 12hours a day for the entire week. Got a headache for the entire day and it was uncomfortable. Just took some medicine so hopefully tomorrow will be better. Really excited to get back to work tomorrow cos i'll be doing a different thing, though this week will be as tiring as the last. CNY is coming up and this year's visitations will be slightly different and i'll have more places to go to.
Didn't go for sermon today but i felt today's sunday school was related to what we'll be preparing for JEM. The old law and new law. Jesus came to change a lot of the laws that existed in the OT. The fundamentals don't change, the purpose don't change but the practices and traditions changed. So often we stick to our own understanding and practices that we think that anything else, is wrong. Perhaps it's better if we think about the purpose of what we're doing and judge based on that. Ultimately, God is the only one whom we want to please and should be pleasing. For that, we need wisdom, and wisdom can only be gotten when we fear God and obey His commandments.
Gotta try to remind myself this for the entire week.
I love it when it rains and i'm about to sleep.
End.
Brian
10:59 PM
Saturday, January 21, 2017
Day 6.
No coffee.
6 hours of rehearsals.
YF.
Dinner & dessert.
Used to gauge how happening my day was by how long i've spent out.
Recently, it's easier to count how long i'm in.
Really felt tired today.
Napped for 30min midway through rehearsals.
Had energy for the entire until during dinner. That's when my energy level dropped drastically.
It is nice to be making full use of my time during the weekdays and meet everyone during the weekends.
It really puts things into perspectives. People to hold me accountable, people who ask about my week, people who really care.
So today, our practice for the wedding performance finally saw good improvement today.
Evened out some of the problems we faced since the start. Getting more familiar with our role and dynamics in each song.
Things are going at a good pace now and we should be able to even out most things by the time of the wedding.
I really want more time. More alone time, more time to spend with the ones i love.
Everyone knows that that is impossible so i can only say that i gotta try to spend my time more wisely.
It's not that i'm having lack of sleep. I'm just not having enough energy to last me through 16hours of the day. This is so bad, i hope after 1 or 2 weeks it'll be fine.
End.
Brian
11:27 PM
Friday, January 20, 2017
Day 5.
8.30am
1 cup of coffee, 1 creamer, 3 sugars
Many thoughts.
Managed to finish all my online training for today.
Went through the entire project regarding why we're doing it and how do we go about achieving the end goal.
New concepts that i've never heard before and really saw how complex the system really is.
Got introduced to another project that one of the engineers is working on.
Hopefully i'll be starting on that next week and figuring out how to go about conducting the tests.
Had a long talk with one of the engineers today.
Asked him why he chose to come to Singapore to work.
Talked about Singapore's education, culture, and some other things.
Both said they are happy working at this company. And when i asked them if they have to work OT, they said they usually come back on weekends.
If i want to work full-time in this company, that's probably what is required of me as well.
But this wasn't in my plan when considering a full-time job.
Thinking about my future.
My family, my job, my life on this earth and my spiritual walk with God.
How much of it is gonna change when i actually start work?
What do i really want?
And, what does God want me to do and where does He want me to be?
Perhaps by the end of this internship, i'll have a clearer idea.
End.
Brian
11:13 PM
Thursday, January 19, 2017
Day 4.
8.30am
1 cup of coffee, 1 creamer and 2 sugars.
Interesting day.
Felt really tired in the morning today because i exercised last night.
Body aint in its tip-top condition today.
Always felt like sleeping.
Had a really big portion of fried rice for lunch.
As a fried rice connoisseur, it was not really good but portion made up for it.
Went to the lab to get some work done.
Stayed there for 2hours but it felt like 1.
Learnt a lot today.
Engineering is a good profession.
It is something that i see purpose in, perhaps better right now.
Doing something related to microwaves and till today, i didn't know that man doesn't know much about microwaves.
We have no idea how it actually works. Basically, we have no control over it.
Yet, i know that there is a God behind this.
A perfectly creative and powerful God who created microwaves and allows us to tap into a little of its power for us to use.
This God allowed us to discover all this technology that we have right now.
Things that are so complex, so genius, so amazing, God had His hand in everything that we use right now.
It truly is amazing to see how mechanical engineering is only a small part of engineering itself, how everything comes together to form a unified system and certain systems has low tolerances for errors in precision.
This was how our God made us. He made us with the most perfect way possible. One day, those who believe in Him are gonna become perfect once more.
You alone, are what i should be worshipping and praising.
End.
Brian
11:11 PM
Wednesday, January 18, 2017
3rd Day8.35am
1 cup of coffee, 1 creamer, 2 sugars
Many hours of lab.
Went into the lab for the first time today and boy is the procedure tedious.
Quite a big hassle to go in and out of the lab itself.
Havent gotten the right sizes for labwear so i gotta wear someone else's.
Smelly.
Oversized.
Uncomfortable.
Lab work was interesting though. Got to see how a cleanroom is like.
Saw the engineers working on the project that they're doing.
Lab work is kinda mundane though, i think the thought process, problem-solving methods and idea generation will be more interesting and will give more UMPH also.
Halfway through the week and i'm drained.
Exercised today and i'm really gone. Probably gonna sleep soon.
Weekends are gonna be busy too. But life still feels like it's more than just having internship so all's good.
Thinking about how much i do is for God so far.
Honestly, when i think about it, it really isn't much. How do i serve God even when i'm working on something that is for the world?
Still, there's so many things that make me even more amazed.
People often overlook the little things in our lives.
Let's take for example, a microwave oven.
Very few of us knows how the oven emits microwaves.
Much less how microwaves cooks the food we put in it.
The entire process is actually something we ought to marvel at. Yet most of us take it for granted because it doesn't matter whether we know how it works.
What matters is if you've got the money to buy it. Once you've bought it, you can use it. That's all that matters.
All these things, God designed, God created.
Man was given, man discovered, man uses.
How are we to deny the fact that God exists?
How am i to oversee that even in my workplace right now, God is showing me how great of a God He is?
It's insane.
So i'm gonna try my best to understand the little things that God has provided for us, for me.
Brian
11:08 PM
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
2nd Day.
8 hours.
1 laptop.
2 cups of coffee with 1 creamer and 2 sugar.
E-learning.
Lots of e-learning.
A perm staff leaving Applied so there was a farewell lunch.
Ate authentic Indian food for the first time.
It was vegan. It was still good. But if there's meat, it would be better.
Supposed to go lab.
Intern IC busy, so in the end no go.
Tomorrow gonna have 2 lab sessions, gonna be slightly xiong.
Then more e-learning.
Going back home today, gave me time to think.
Thought about the rest of my week and tonight was the only night that i'm free.
I've packed my schedule so tightly until it seems slightly overwhelming now.
So, question: Am i using my time wisely?
I don't wanna tire myself out and at the end of the day, i didn't give my all in certain things that i do.
Still trying to figure out a balance between how much i can give and how much rest i need.
How do i be a Godly steward of time?
Time is really precious now.
If i come home straight from work, I'll have around 5hours.
45min to eat (if it's with my parents)
45min to settle miscellaneous stuff
i only have 3hr 30min left.
If i go out to have dinner then probably 1 - 1hr30min.
I dont have much free time anymore.
It sucks but i still think what matters is how i use this time.
In the end, time is only a tool.
Brian
11:39 PM
Monday, January 16, 2017
First day of Intern
Started late because I had to go to changi to collect the security badge and laptop.
Reached Science Park at around 1.30pm? hahahah
Didn't do much today, just orientation and doing some online modules for safety procedures in the lab.
Dont think i'm as tired as i thought i would be (even though i'm still pretty tired)
Some things to look forward to, some things not so.
Realised i'm in a different department from the rest.
Tomorrow will be my first full day in office.
Hmm hopefully i'll be able to keep my promise to myself of making nights useful.
After all, God has designed for us to sleep 8 hours so i gotta make good use of the remaining 16.
Nothing interesting happened today so there's not much reflection for today.
But looking into the next 6months, i have no idea what i'll achieve or learn or experience.
Looking back in the past two years, there's so many changes that i really dont dare to predict what's gonna come next.
Be it good or bad, i think God has His own ways. We'll see what happens 5, 6 months later.
Brian
11:03 PM
Sunday, January 15, 2017
What am i thankful for? And who am i thankful to?
Had a sharing session yesterday and didn't think about these questions until i was on my way there.
It's so crazy looking back in the past year and seeing how God has been in my life whether i knew it or not, whether i wanted Him to or not.
It still puzzles me as to why i'm in a relationship.
It takes two hands to clap, and with me wanting it will result in nothing if there's no one willing.
Yet God has been gracious and gave me someone i can confide in, someone that is able to cheer me up when i'm done and talk sense into me.
Learnt a lot in the past 5 months and i can only say we've barely scratched the surface of what it means to love another.
Coming 5 months will be challenging as i have a change in life.
Starting internship tomorrow and not sure if i'll be able to adapt to the routine hours of work everyday.
Not sure if i'm able to survive with so little free time.
Never have really liked change, and this change is something i'm particularly nervous about.
It might be exciting, it might be dreadful.
But we'll see.
Brian
11:44 PM
