Sunday, May 8, 2016
JEM. IS. OVER!
There was a lot of work being put into preparing this session. The multiple meetings we had and reading various commentaries to intense discussions, it has been crazy.
I remember there was once that we met for a meeting that lasted from 7+ to 10+ and when i got home it was near 12am. And the discussion was INTENSE! Questions after questions after questions, it was crazy and fun at the same time.
I like discussions like that. These are discussions i'll never be able to have if i was younger and not able to think. Not that i'm any smarter, but just that i'm able to find out how stupid i am with regards to the Truth and ask.
For today's YF we went to YQLS's house and i always prefer the house setting. It's just more casual and it feels more like a sharing. I especially love the time we have after sessions like that at someone's house. Everyone is there, talking and playing and just enjoying each other's company. The state of the youths right now, brings me so much joy. To see everyone talking to someone, or playing random games together, it's just such an awesome sight. I chose to sit out of every single thing today to observe for awhile. Everyone had smiles on their faces and i could hear people laughing. That itself, brings a smile to my face. Of course, soon after i jumped right into the mix of the group and started playing too.
I can't help but to think though.
How long will this last?
Eventually, we're all gonna grow up. We won't have YF every single week to come together and share and get to know how we've been doing. We won't be able to learn together and spur each other on to do better for God as how we are now. Even if it's possible, it wouldn't the same and it would be extremely difficult to pull that off. Maybe 2 years more, till i start working, i'll be able to enjoy this.
The youths really are a blessing to me.
And i gotta say, TM has gotten extremely good at harmonica! Can play on the spot liao, walao! Where got so imba one. I also wanna be able to play the guitar by ear but very hard lehhh ARGH! Anyway today's jamming session was awesome! JEM/JAM! WHOOPIE!
Brian
12:19 AM
Friday, May 6, 2016
JEM JEM JEM
Saturday is JEM sharing and i havent really been prepping as much as i should so tomorrow i'll have to rush it. Argh i hope i don't rush it half-heartedly just because there's a meeting tomorrow night. Content is all there i just have to gather my thoughts and organise them so that it's ready for sharing so i should be fine. I'm always stressed when i'll be sharing, it's always been like that since FDOJ but it's good stress. I'm sharing based on God's Word after all, it would be weird if i'm perfectly comfortable with that.
Went out with the boys today and gosh i ate a lot. I can feel my tummy growing.. THIS IS BAD. Hopefully i'll be able to find some time to exercise soooon. Nahhh who am i kidding, i'll end up playing the guitar instead i think hahaha.
Mood is much better recently. Thankful for certain things but at the same time there's all these uncertainties that are making me think. Really shouldn't be thinking about all these things which i have no answer for. I'm so glad I'm given the ability to sing and play the guitar, these two things always makes my day.
Brian
12:36 AM
Wednesday, May 4, 2016
Oh man i think when i'm not stressed i tend to not blog but something happened today made me rethink.
When i first blogged it was partly for me to tell the little world that i know, what's happening in my life. There was a part of me that wanted to record down what happened for the future me.
A blog is like a digital diary.
I never liked the handwritten one cos i'd usually run out of patience to finish writing.
There's just something different about typing.
I might start writing one though.
The thing about blogs is that everyone can read it, but a physical diary is private.
Certain memories stick like elephant glue, but i'll never know the day might come that i will forget everything.
Even the stickiest of glues wear off after time happens.
So! I watched the conjuring today, pretty scary but i wasn't too scared! I kinda wonder why..
Played a lot of guitar today too but mostly stayed indoors today cos the weather was just too damn hot! Even as i'm typing this at 1.30am, i'm sweating..
I need to get my lazy ass off and start exercising too but this heat really ain't helping oh gosh.
Nonetheless, i have to force myself to try since it's the holidays and i've really got nothing much to lose or worry about.
I continue to thank God for a lot of things that has happened in the past year or so.
But that doesn't mean that i'm stopping there. Why?
People say the only constant is change, screw that.
The only constant is God and that's something so worthy to be thankful for.
For now, there are some things i don't know and don't understand. I'll just have to wait to see how things play out.
I wish i could have more days like these.
Brian
1:40 AM
