Thursday, January 28, 2016
I like talking to people but i've always feared the outcome.
Fear of them not interested in talking to me, fear of rejection.
The best people to talk to defintely are those that i can talk to about anything in the world, without reservation, without fearing being judged, without any walls.
Tonight i had a long chat with a very good ol' friend of mine.
It was unexpectedly surprising that we could still talk like that, even after not contacting each other for 6,7 years.
It's crazyyyy, but in a good way.
Super glad to know that this friend has changed to be a more focused and hardworking person. (Not that you weren't hardworking enough ah! Okay la last time you really weren't la HAHA)
It was really a good catch up!
Of course, i told this friend what i went through recently.
And guess what this friend said as well, "you're being too hard on yourself."
Somehow i still dont think i'm being hard on myself.
A lot of things happened because of me and turned out this way because of me.
All because i'm still a boy.
The guilt will definitely be there until the day you wont be unhappy because of me.
Today was really awesome, unexpectedly.
I am so happy that we are still able to open up to each other like that after so long!
This is why secondary school days are the best, i've made real friends there.
Anyway to this very good ol' friend of mine, if you're reading this, thanks for listening, thanks for giving me advice and encouragements!
You're definitely awesomer than the person i knew back in secondary school!
Brian
1:18 AM
