Monday, October 12, 2015
The urge to talk to you now is just too strong.
For the past few weeks, i've been talking to a lot of people, confiding in a lot of people.
But the last 2 weeks, I thought I was okay, feeling better, maybe a little stronger, so I kept everything to myself.
Now i find myself in a wreck.
I may be smiling, laughing but I'm not able to be genuinely happy.
All i want to know is how you're doing.
But if you're coping well, will i be satisfied with that or will i want more?
If you're not, what can i really do?
Maybe, you're happy now.
That would make sense because i felt i was tying you down too much.
Maybe, you've already gotten over it.
That would be good.
Most of the time, i think too much and i feel too much.
Too much to a point that it becomes poison, slowly eating away at myself.
I gotta learn how to manage myself better, but for now, i'm a total wreck.
When there's nothing left to think, all i want to think about is you.
But, that's just me being selfish again.
I'm a mess.
-Day 35-
Brian
10:59 PM
