Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Hi there! was too caught up in looking through the YF retreat photos and listening to oldies that i forgot to post! haha
had a imba huge dilemma ytd - pickup or biblestudy. Well, in the end i went for bible study and i felt really bad towards Hudson because in the end he didn't go for the pickup. Why? Because i pangseh him:( i feel really really bad. But man! i gotta say, if i missed the biblestudy ytd, i would've missed out on so much more!
So we looked at Numbers 21:10-35. Little did i know, the invasion of Canaan only began in Numbers 21:10! Before that, they didn't take possession of any of the places until Heshbon and Bashan where Kings Sihon and Og reigned. Its a comforting fact that God is our warrior and that he fights for us, but its a scary fact that God can be very very violent as well (Revelation 19:11-21).
God is our Provider as well! Numbers 21:16-18, God gave them water to drink and from these few verses we saw how God provided. People had to be gathered and mind you, there wasn't things called the loudhailer or speakers or radio or walkie talkies back then where information can be sent out very fast? It was difficult to gather so many people in one place. God then asked the Israelites to dig a well and mind you again, there was no machines back then to help you dig a hole back then. As for digging a well, no one had an experience of digging a real well but you know its hard work when you know the process of digging a well. Who dug the well? Might be shocking to you, but there were princes and nobles who dug the well. With what? With their scepters and staffs. This was how humble they were at that point in time when they saw how Almighty God was. Man i really gotta learn this lesson of being humble. Putting down my ego and do things for God instead of myself.
Pastor soonyong also said that God provides BUT we must take the action to get it. Just like how God provided them with water but they still have to dig the well THEMSELVES. There's simply no contradiction. At all. You just have to pray about it, do something about it, and accept the outcome. It is in these decisions that we make that we are able to glorify God. I don't know how to say this but i'm ALWAYS stuck at the praying part. Not having enough courage to do something. Especially when pastor sy gave the example of a bgr. Pray about it, ask her out, whether she says yes or no, accept it. But the thing is, what happens if she has a boyfriend? I mean you can't help it when it comes to feelings like that right? It just happens! Do i still go ahead to ask her out? Wouldn't that seem like i'm trying to break them up or smth? What am i supposed to do when it comes to things like this? I guess pastor sy is the only pastor who is constantly reminding us teens/youths about relationships. About how we should be glorifying God through our relationships. And that is REALLY important because everyone of us teens/youths experience that and it is something that adults usually avoid telling us.
I just hope i'll be able to have the courage to do something. I'm afraid. So afraid that everything would be back to square one or even worse. It may make me feel bad coming to church.
Psalm 119:105 "You word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path."
Brian
11:54 AM
