Wednesday, December 21, 2011
You know just awhile ago, i was feeling very bad. very very bad. I don't really know what word to use though, "bad" doesn't seem to be a good representative of what i was feeling. Why i felt like that? Yeah you guessed it, about that thing again.
i asked myself the same questions that i asked myself a few days back, whether i'm having the right heart and motive in God's work. Yeah on the outside i may be serving the Lord and all, but am i having the right heart? You know the more i ask these questions, the more doubt i have. So is it really okay to ask yourself this question? I felt really bad about myself, always being so weak in this particular area. On one hand, i wanna forget. Forget this feeling, forget everything so that i may serve the Lord whole-heartedly. But on the other hand, its really difficult to forget? I mean its not something that happens overnight. And along the way, struggles never end.
But you know, this really showed me how powerful a prayer is. i prayed about this matter and i really felt better. Its not that i prayed to ask God to help me forget, but its more of asking God to examine my heart constantly so that i may continue to walk on this narrow path.
i wish i could forget though...
Brian
1:08 PM
