Friday, December 23, 2011
okay! went for bible study(chinese) for the first time today! thought it would end at 930 but there were questions and it ended at 10pm instead. To be honest, i was abit frustrated at first because i wanted to go home early, to feed autumn and try and sleep early. but after hearing some of the sharing and answers to the questions it kinda changed. and its really through walking closer with God that we are able to prepare ourselves in the 2nd coming of Christ. Because it was in chinese i couldn't really concentrate and i felt some of the points were repeated den i went to think about other things :P
On another note. I'M SUPER MAD AT MYSELF! it has further proven that i'm very easily distracted by it and i ask myself again and again. Am i going to church for the correct reasons? I really want to listen and read more about God's words but when i'm there reading and listening to it, i get distracted. VERY EASILY. argh, how i wish i could get rid of this feeling once and for all. return back to my heartless self. so that i don't have to feel some of the unnecessary things which is getting in my way. In a way, i feel like i may do something rash like i did the previous 2 times. I really need to find someone to talk to asap, maybe weimin laoshi. i'm sure she can give me some pretty good advice.
Psalm 25:17 "Relieve the troubles of my heart, and free me from my anguish."
Brian
11:43 PM
