Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Just got back from church. For the first time, i went to prayer meeting. It really further proved to me that our prayer life is a very important part of our spiritual growth. I wasn't very awake throughout the whole meeting, but i think i've gotten some of the main points. Our prayer is often very self-centered?
We are always praying for our own will and not God's will.
We pray for the things we desire rather than for God's plan to be fulfilled in our lives.
We pray for ourselves more than we pray for others.
There's really alot of lessons i have to learn in my prayer life.
With regards to that matter again, i think i won't ever stop praying about it? It just comes back to me every now and then. Bugging me every now and then. To be honest, the more i think about it, the more i feel its my fault and not yours. i mean it is my fault in the first place to not control myself. Even when i knew of certain facts, i still never gave up hope. I guess there are some things which is better giving up. I don't know. As much as i want to forget about it, i know that shouldn't be what i should pray for. I should pray that i can follow God's plans for me and not asking Him to help me forget. But there's always a part of me wishing that i can forget asap? Maybe its because i think its the fastest way to take away the pain. I guess the others are right. I'm just too ignorant.
I still think nobody reads this blog though... i hope i'm right...
Brian
11:22 PM
