Thursday, December 29, 2011
I feel that i gotta say this, at least to myself. I'm kinda afraid to take the initiative now. "Once bitten, twice shy" i got bitten twice, does that mean i'm 4x as shy? It's always expected that guys must take the first step, but i'm scared. I'm scared that i get bitten again. What if things doesn't turn out the way you imagined? Or at least things took a wrong turn... having to start all over again isn't fun, at all. Somehow i think its real, but i'm the type that would let my feelings cloud my judgement. So i can't be too sure over this matter. Especially when she treats everyone equally nice. And by "nice", i mean very nice. There's always something to talk about with her and you'll feel that it is a very enjoyable conversation. At least for me. In my eyes, she treats me very nicely, but from other people's point of view, she treats me the same as how she treats them, nothing special. She's different from alot of girls i know, maybe it all started because of this? but i didn't see the other part of it, she treats everyone the same. I just don't know, so confused about this matter.
I'll have to think more about it... whether i treat her as a very good friend, or is this feeling real...
This post has been published with the assumption that i think that no one reads my blog anymore.
Brian
7:54 PM
