Sunday, December 25, 2011
hmm so ytd was an awesome day! gym-ed in the morning, frisbee in the afternoon (despite of the rain!) and christmas party-ed at uncle david's house in the night. AWESOME! especially in the afternoon cos hudson, sheng, teng and me did some trickshots! so fun! and i threw one long distance shot. I can't imagine myself playing real ultimate frisbee though. i get tired just by throwing CASUALLY G_G oh well...
today was gan en hui! all the presentations were super cute! from little kids to adults, almost every age group performed except for YOUTHS! WHY NO YOUTHS?! i cant't really think of what we can do on stage anyway so yeah HAHA den choir gathering at limei laoshi's house in the afternoon. And u bet i was surprised with who turned up! Prof Chun and Shixin! (in a good way of course=.=) felt so thankful that they are actually thinking of serving God in different ministries! had a great time there talking and laughing together, and of course EATING THE STEAMBOAT WHICH WAS IMBA NICE! i guess the steamboat at jiaying's place tomorrow wun be as nice... NO OFFENCE! HAHA but ya cos limei laoshi and jingrong laoshi gt this special steamboat thing that can bbq stuff at the side and YEAH we ate alot of meat heh heh^^
Well, back to that thing again. i really feel i'm going crazy sometimes. Maybe i know the reason why God hasn't allowed it yet, maybe because it is something that would distract me from going to church and spend more time serving God? or maybe i haven't put Him at the topmost priority in everything i do. I really don't know. You know i could always end it by getting rejected and i'll forget even easier and faster. But i feel that's not the right thing to do for now. Besides, it'll mean i'm selfish and it would be super awkward between us. I just hope God gives me a sign as to what i should do or maybe some hints on what i should do. One biggest question i have in my mind right now - to continue or not. i could tell myself to forget her and eventually i really will. ARGH I DUNNO. that's why i'm going crazy...
i still think nobody would read this anymore...
Brian
10:04 PM
